Im pretty sure my mind is going to explode someday soon. I am just. AGHH.

Cant sleep
Cant eat (dont wanna)
Cant just be
So
Anxious and just so limited too...

I think Im sick....

Yeah... Im freezing, stomach does not want to keep whatevers in there IN there. 

ARGHFARGH.

Stupid sore throat, just had to get worse. and worse. and worse. 

Now Im a victim of this "disease," vulnerable to its ghastly horrors. hahaha, alittle exaggerated there.

but it sucks.

Losing weight again.

104.

... ♥

I also have a psychology test on monday o.O

AGHH! 

Anyone want to lend a hand in my studying?

ARGH sorry for being so boring....

I dislike thanksgiving. though i ate... not THAT badly. I ate a lot though:

Mashed potatoes

Sweet potatoes w/ marshmellows

corn

mac n cheese

chocolate covered strawberries

pumpkin pie

icecream

a desert bun thing.

Over all, I couldve ate worse. But still, I refuse to add up the calories on this. It is crazzy

http://thedisoriented.tumblr.com/

Arghhhh food.

ARGH.

I dont want to be fat.

Such a Great and Yet Stressful Day

So. Track season has started, which means, NO food problems/insecurities/etc. eating healthy is the priority.

Today, in my mind, was

epic

*Which I also appologize for using the word 'epic' but I was lacking in a better term. So deal with it:) 

I had ONE hour of sleep. Somehow.

THEN I had school and lost my bracelet and was stressed about that. (I found it later)

THEN I had track. Which was. TRACK! We had warmup. Then we ran army laps, but me, with my medical condition, ran regular laps. 10 regular laps (2 1/2 miles, 4000  meters) and then did several sets of lunges, squats, burpees, and curlups. (pain but awesome) And then I ran an extra mile:) A total of 3 1/2 miles right there. 

THEN I had karate, and did stuff there.

Im STILL not tired.

What is this madness?

(No its not sparta.)

Goals:

Track practice: 2 hours, IMPROVE.
After track: run AROUND track, atleast a mile.
Improve form on long jump

I am in love with running (and my boyfriend) !!!!!

Today I ran 4 miles, it was... ♥ and walked about 2 maybe. My goal for this year though is to get to states... 

So I NEED muscle. Which means a diet with a lot of protein. but not. FAT.

Hmmm...

track!

400 calories lost to pasta... or 360.
220 to crescent rolls... more like 110 + 25= 135 or 140
= 620/ 540
woe is me.
-Calisthenics 380.07
-Jogging 111.45
491.52 calories. 

(I am not functioning well today)

(And yet I am)